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note: This is a tough one. The lyric jumped out at me and then was enforced much more in the last 2 days. I still feel like I am just whining or bitching instead of trying to craft a point. Also had a hard time titling it.

"Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me" Teenagers - My Chemical Romance

Wisdom is a curse. I don't know a better way to describe it. Being different is not always the best thing. Everyone can tell you how important it is to be your own person, until it puts you in the position that every wants something from you. This curse is no new development. In my almost six years with my company, I have always been a go to guy, a source of knowledge. It is only recently that I have realized how much of a curse, a burden, an albatross around my neck this has become.

Being the golden child at work has offered many benefits. I am usually given free rein to run things the way I want to. When I speak, people listen and my thoughts are highly considered. Those are things most people can't claim at their jobs.

Still this week has especially irritated me. I've become the resident expert on a new project not only with my building, but the entire company. I was brave enough to go first with this project. I was smart enough to hurdle us through the obstacles the change presented. I was strong enough to lead my team through the change, teach them to think on their feet and succeed through the change.

It would seem I am the only person of this skill set. Buildings out West are whining before they even start. All they see is insurmountable obstacles and evil change. The group out in the East at least tried to take on the project. But now it seems they have stumbled into the obstacles and are seemingly throwing in the towel.

All this leads back to me. I am drug into every conference call. I am e-mailed and called constantly with questions. I have been repeatedly asked to defend the merits of the project to every other whining manager in the country. No one helped my team, we figured it out. I knew it would work and I taught my people how to figure it out. We adapted and excelled like the human race has been doing for thousands of years.

I have no issue helping people. I only have one prerequisite, they have to want to be helped. No whining, no saying this will never work. Guidance, assistance is gladly given to those wanting to learn, those stuck in the project but want to succeed in something new.

I am trying to keep this from a diatribe. I am not whining about people coming to me for help. My door, my knowledge has always been open for sharing. But I cannot stand whiners, the negative people that only see the problems with everything. I do not understand how these people operate their businesses with this attitude and seeming lack of ingenuity. I have never believed that I could be this far above my peers.

This will certainly continue to test my patience elicit numerous curse words of various languages emanating out of my office.